Three weeks have passed since we lost our beloved Bismarck, and the heartache is still fresh.
Steve and I have so very much appreciated all the kindness, concern and thoughtfulness of everyone around us – family, friends, neighbors, fellow bloggers – even complete strangers.
Even people who aren’t necessarily “dog people” seem to recognize just how huge a part of our lives Bismarck was, and we are so grateful for all the thoughts and prayers everyone has sent our way.
The phone calls, cards (even from our mailman, who Bismarck barked at daily!) and emails people have sent us have touched us so much.
Our next-door neighbor brought us over a framed picture she had taken of Bismarck and Ryder a few weeks before Bizzy passed away – and a half gallon of my favorite ice cream, Breyer’s Mint Chocolate Chip. We are so fortunate to have the neighbors we do!
Some of my blog friends wrote such wonderful posts about Bizzy on their blogs… even though they had never actually met Bizzy in person, his spirit had obviously touched them so beautifully.
One of my blog friends even made a donation to Tufts, the research hospital we brought Bismarck to for his chemo treatments. When I found that out, I was literally speechless. I cannot even begin to express my gratitude for that, as the people at Tufts were so wonderful and caring to Bismarck, and so compassionate with us.
Of course, we are still running into people who haven’t heard the news, and having someone we haven’t seen in awhile innocently ask, “How are the doggies!?” just brings all of our sorrow to the surface again.
Today Steve and I were food shopping when we ran into one of our old neighbors. She has two dogs, and we used to walk by her house and let all the dogs play on her front lawn.
“How’s the new house?” she asked.
Then I knew which question was coming next. So before she could even ask, I said, “I have to tell you… we have some bad news.”
And I told her about Bismarck… and how we found out he had cancer on June 1st… and how he fought such a courageous battle for eight weeks… and then the cancer started spreading… and it wasn’t fair for him to be in pain…
She had tears in her eyes. She understood how devastated we are.
Of course, when Steve and I got into our car, my tears started flowing, too.
The unfairness of it all… the fact that Bizzy would have turned 6 years old this week… the absolutely beautiful soul he was… it is sometimes just too overwhelming for me.
The only thing I can take comfort in is knowing that Bismarck is always around us. He is in our hearts. He is with us every moment.
As I said to Steve today, “We have two children… one here on earth with us, and one angel watching over us.”