Last night at a friend’s house I had a moment.
(Gasp!)
Yes, a moment.
I don’t know what caused it. I don’t know why it took that moment in time to unveil itself.
But suddenly I became, in a word – overwhelmed.
What? (Gasp!)
Overwhelmed!?
Yes.
And it came on like gang-busters. Here I was having a good time with my little ones and some friends. And something just got me. All of a sudden the tears started flowing.
Maybe it was the fact that I was just tired. Physically tired. Benjamin was been teething for the past week and sleep for him has not been good. And William and Alexander have been up every night till 11pm. Just in their rooms chatting and singing away. But nonetheless, wide wake.
Maybe it was the fact (sorry, Honey) that my husband was supposed to come home from his business trip on Thursday and it got pushed back a day. Not something that is unusual; I know this could happen anytime.
Maybe it was the fact that Alexander had to go to a Pediatric Cardiologist on Tuesday because of a murmur in his heart that sounded a little serious. And I didn’t sleep for 2 days. And was horribly nervous and worried. And the anticipation of the appointment, and then to hear all is well and nothing serious is mentally, emotionally and physically draining.
Oh yeah, and it’s been raining and/or damp and dreary for the past few days.
Maybe it’s simply OK to get drained for a moment in time.
I think we’ve all been there. Or all will go there – maybe even today.
And I’m fine now. After a good cry. A good venting. And a nice cup of Iced Coffee last night at 9pm.
After all, I think we’re allowed one “overwhelming” once in awhile, right?
– Audrey
I totally agree!
Glad to hear Alexander is okay!
Absolutely OKAY!!
Heck yes, I think all of us get that every once in a while. I’ve been having them lately. (((HUGS)))
you are SUCH a great mom. and human! 🙂
Totally normal for any Mom… If anyone tries to tell you otherwise, they are only kidding themselves!!
What a scare with Alexander – Sooo glad everything’s good!
Of course we are allowed! It is the only way we can get over it and move on. I think you are great!
We wouldn’t be human otherwise! Of COURSE!
Heck yes it’s ok!! I think I may have one of those moments in the next few days… I am just down right exhausted!!
I’m thinking once a DAY sounds about right LOL
Audrey… The last time you had anything in the category of a “moment” was the last couple of weeks of your senior year of high school when you had ten million things to accomplish in about 2 days.
“Moments” can calm us. Actually!
I love you!
Mom – Pinks & Blues Girls
Of course it is OK, I had one a few weeks ago myself. :o)
You poor thing. Hang in there. I totally understand, am with you, and glad you had some friends around when it all came out.
Oh god yes. In a similar vein – my husband is on a business trip all week, I had an OB/GYN appointment to check on new baby, my daughter started speech therapy and I have billed 65+ hours this week and I’m not even close to being done. So, yes – add the dreary weather and a cooped up toddler and moments abound.
Iced coffee always helps, no? Hang in there 🙂
Totally entitled! I’m glad Alexander is ok. That alone is definitely cause for more than one “episode” for sure!
Definitely! If you can’t let go and have an ‘episode’ of feeling overwhelmed when you’re with friends, there’s really no place else – I hope things get better soon.
Oh, I have those moments. Usually they are in my bedroom alone, but I have them. I am so sorry that things have piled up a little lately. Anyone of those alone could cause pressure, especially little Alexander’s visit to a pediatric cardiologist. Scary stuff. I have just been whining about a post vacation funk to my neighbors. It sounds silly and selfish when I think of what else could be going on. Glad to hear that everything was ok with Alexander. It sometimes feels so good to let those tears flow doesn’t it. As a mom, we have to always keep it together(especially in front of our kids), but boy does it help to have “moments” now and again.
Audrey, with three small children having a “moment ” could be an everyday event and no one would think any worse of you. When my kids were really little I remember feeling overwhelmed alot. My husband traveled alot at the time and we missed him so much. As women we expect so much of ourselves, including being a great mom, great wife, great friend and the list goes on and on. Take as many “moments” as you need!
Ps. so glad Alexander is ok.
Happy to hear that Alex is in good health! Take a moment to scream everyday, it feels reeeally good!
Oh honey, we’re allowed as many as we need. With a week like you had, you definitely were in need and thank goodness you were surrounded by good friends.
Yes! We are allowed. Hugs to you. I was sitting in a doctor’s office with the boys (dang, we live in offices) the other day and felt this feeling of overwhelmed just smack me . I had to fight back tears. Later in the day when hubby came home I hid in my room and cried. I felt so lost for a while. It happens.
You definately aren’t the only mom who has ever gotten overwhelmed! I joke a lot that my kids keep me so busy that the overwhelming moments come when I get a seconds peace and realize the serious job I’ve taken on by trying to be a good wife, raise three outstanding citizens, and still keep a little of the person I was before all of this came to be. Add a possible illness in on all of that and you’ve got one heck of an overwhelming situation!
I’m so glad that you shared this though because I remember a time, before I began blogging and meeting other moms online, where I thought something was wrong with me because of these moments. Thanks!
We had to take our youngest to a pediatric cardiologist on Thursday for the same thing. It turned out to be an innocent murmur but I totally understand your stress!
Oh Lord…it better be ok. This year I’ve been having them about once every other week!!
I’m ok. You’re ok.
right…..?
Ahhh, I have had several “moments” that have turned into minutes and even hours. Sometimes it’s just GREAT to get it all out!!! I’m glad you’re feeling better. 🙂
If we aren’t allowed, I sure as heck am in some trouble!!! If yours was just a moment I’d say you’re ahead of most of us! Okay, maybe just me…
it is so good to get it all out!!
::pulling out hair::
wow…it sounds like you are a mom or something. You just sounds so…I don’t know…normal.
Oh yes. We wouldn’t be human if we didn’t get overwhelmed from time to time. lol
Oh yeah, you definitely are entitled! I think something would be wrong if you DIDN’T feel like this every once in a while….
I still get that way sometimes. Even now that the boyz are a bit older.
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We are so allowed to have those moments. Heck, I normally have one once a week! Matter of fact yesterday I was cleaning the house and flipping out LOL My boys had to think I was insane, cleaning and mumbling like a crazy woman!